God made each and every one of us unique for a reason. Preprogrammed into your soul is your specific purpose. And that purpose will use ALL the physical, emotional, and spiritual gifts you were created with. God wastes nothing. Just look at the inter-relationship and inter-dependence of everything in the universe. I remember as a youngster when I would hear of friends having their appendix removed. I would always wonder, “Don’t we need that thing? Why would we have it in the first place if we didn’t need it?”
Even more important to understand is that there is nothing about our design that limits us from pursuing our specific purpose. No physical or mental handicap. No circumstantial handicap (like poverty, loss of a loved one, being raised with one parent, etc.). Nothing. Nada! In fact, one of the cool things about life is learning how God will actually use these things as attributes of our purpose.
Now the bad news. From the day you are born, the world will pull out all the stops and try to define you. Your parents, your school, your occupation, your therapist, your friends, your spouse, your political party, etc, etc, etc… They will all have their own agenda. Not necessarily always malicious, but just the way the world works. However, we must be on our toes at all times and fight tendencies and influences that may not be aligned with God’s plan for us. Often, this may mean venturing beyond our comfort zone or shedding a lot of the world’s programming (particularly if we hardened in our ways and beliefs or up in our years). But with faith and persistence, you will achieve this pursuit for sure. It took me over 50 years.
So, stop trying to be someone other than who you were meant to be. Besides, as Oscar Wilde once said, “Be yourself, Everyone else is already taken.” Blessings in your journey…